Skip to main content

Opposition

Opposition is defined by Merriam-Webster as "actions or opinions that show that you disagree with or disapprove of someone or something"

I had a ton of that this morning.  My daughter and I spend the majority of each morning being in opposition to one another.  Her goal is to spend each day eating take out food and watching TV.  My goal is to spend each day caring for our home and making sure that she learns how to read, write and do arithmetic.  You can see that these things don't line up with each other.  And it appears that she believes that she's no good at the things that I think she can do.  After class today, we had an in depth rant/therapy session.  I know that you should not lead therapy sessions for those that are close to you, but it needed to be done and I was the only other one here.

As I sat there, doing a piss poor job of comforting my daughter as she poured out one of her greatest fears, I started to wonder if I too create the conditions for what I fear to come true.  My fear is that I will one day be so fat that I won't be able to get out of bed, that they'll charge me for two plane seats when I travel, and that my fat will be my death.  And because of that, and what I've seen my body do in regards to gaining weight, I can develop a fear of my very own body.  I can fear that it won't perform for me, to keep those things at bay.  I fear that if I exert energy to keep the fat away then I won't have the energy to do other things that I have committed to.  And then I allow that fear to put my poor body into a stalemate and thus allowing the door to flood open and pile on the pounds and creating the very thing that I am afraid of. 

I think I need to get rid of some of these fears and not allow myself to believe that they have any truth.  This week the weather is warming up and I have promised myself that I will start walking/running.  But the fat fear, wonders if my fat will cause my knees to ache and my bones to split.  Irrational, silly fears that run in a circle building upon one another.  I guess I should pursue other things instead of these unlikelihoods.  I should show my daughter that not only can we create what we fear, but that we can create what we desire as well.  God willing we can both remove the opposition that we feel about our desires and our reality.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

Stories from the Kitchen: Taste and See

I celebrated my birthday last weekend. It was wonderful and the leftovers left me with a question or two. Find out what they are and how I'm currently answering them in this week's podcast.

Stories from the Kitchen Season 2, Episode 2: Taste and See






Notes from the episode:

Taste and See by Margaret Feinberg

Dad’s New York Cheesecake (from the back of a Philidelphia Cream Cheese package)
1 ⅞ cups graham cracker crumbs ¼ to ½ cup butter, melted 1 cup sugar, divided 2 lbs cream cheese (4 packs) 2 large eggs (lightly beaten) 1 tsp vanilla 2 tbsp cornstarch 1 cup sour cream
Preheat oven to 450F
Mix well graham crackers, 2 tbsp sugar, and enough butter that the mixture holds together. Reserve 2 tbsp for garnish. Press mixture onto bottom and sides of a greased 9-inch springform pan. Chill in the freezer while preparing the filling.
Mix cream cheese and sugar until smooth and light. Beat in eggs, vanilla, and cornstarch until just blended. Stir in sour cream. Pour mixture into crust and bake for…

James Week 10 James 5: 13-20

We finish up our study on James with some encouraging words about prayer and standing in the gap.




Study Questions Week 10


When you don't feel like yourself, what is generally your first response? Do you start with prayer, rest, food, lashing out at others? When you encounter others that are not acting like themselves what is your initial thought? How do you think your relationships would be different if you began those interactions with prayers? Prayers for understanding for yourself and peace for the other person?When you are happy, do you ever try to keep it to yourself because you don't want to celebrate while others around you are struggling? Can focusing our happiness towards God with praise and worship change how we view sharing those moments? God is the source of every good and perfect gift (James 1:17). How can this verse help shape your worship and praise? Take some time this week to praise God for some good gifts, which are present even if you are in the midst of a s…

Thankful Thursday

Hard to believe that it's Thursday already, but it is! Wow! I'm thankful for a whole bunch of things this week, so many that if I would list them all, I'd be here for the rest of the day and into tomorrow. Heck I'd be lucky to be done by the end of the decade.

I'm thankful for my husband! He's a real trooper. Love how he not only cares for so many people through the church, but that he cares for our family. Seems like he's always got just a little bit more time to do what needs to be done, which is pretty amazing considering that he's only got the same 24 hours that I have.

I'm thankful for my little girl. I enjoyed the time away when she was at camp last week, but we've been having fun this week hanging out together. She's pretty amazing in lots of hard to explain ways, I guess she's mysterious in her lovliness. I hope that others are as impressed with it as I am.

I'm thankful for family near and far. I'm looking forward to spe…