I love how when I'm reading books and learning about things that God has shown other people, God takes that openness within me and uses it. For instance, the other night I had a dream about finding a house. The important part was the interpretation afterwards. My husband helped me along with my quiet time with God about it. Because the truth is that there are some dreams that are just that, dreams, things your mind creates while you sleep. But then there are other dreams that can hold great truth, and I think the way that we know the difference is how God interacts with us about them. There are just some dreams that we can't shake off when we wake up and feel the need to share with others. This dream was one of them. And while I won't go into the details with you, I can tell you what God was so generous to show me!
I think it's clear that some of my greatest passions have been put on a back burner. I have a great passion for not only cooking, but entertaining as well. And that has fallen to the wayside, but the worst part of that is that I have created another place that is the forefront of my life and even though, it's the first thing people see or may know about me, it is not my best kept room. Can you imagine that? If we are all houses and people are invited into different parts or rooms of our lives and the one that you bring people into and have the most interaction with, you give very little attention or upkeep to. You just use it as it is and don't tidy it up or worry about improvements. It's just good enough as it is. And that area for awhile now has been writing. Yes, I love writing and having people interact with me through my writing, but the truth is that I don't cultivate that passion in a way that is worthy of it being a front room in my life. Even though I spend a lot of time opening that area of my life and inviting people in, I'm not taking the time to care for it when they aren't around.
I'm still trying to figure out if what God desires is for me to go into that area and put forth more time and effort to be there or if I'm supposed to turn towards the area that God has given me a passion for and allow that to be the primary entrance into my home. If I should continue to write, but that the focus of my day is no longer whether or not I have blogged or even worrying about whether or not I should share something, but to instead put my focus into another area. One in which I pursue the passion that is still alive but has long been neglected.
Tough decisions, but I know that either way, if I focus on God, that both will come to life in a new way. I know that if I focus on the passion of entertaining and cooking, that the writing will flow out of that and because it will no longer be the center of the conversation that it will become better just by the fact that what I'm writing about something that is dear to me, something that I spend time developing and getting better at. How could that not develop the other rooms in my house?