Oh, yesterday, I saw a great big coupon come into my mailbox. And it was for something that I wanted. It was 20 percent off for one of my favorite dress companies. They were even offering free shipping on orders of 99 dollars or more. Which should have been a sweet deal, because these dresses run about 99 dollars. But when you add in the coupon, it took two dresses to get to 99 and then it was terribly expensive. So when I added in shipping to my 20 percent off dress, I was only saving about 10 bucks. Not such a great deal. And then I went looking on other sites for a Christmas dress. Well, guess what, all the dresses that are out right now are short and sleeveless. I then remembered that I have two such dresses in my closet. I tried them on, they both fit. One is made of a heavy linen, the other is a sateen type fabric. I figure if not body else is wearing clothes that are supposed to keep you warm during winter, then I can do it, too. I saved myself over a hundred dollars! Now that's a sale.
I have a hard time spending money sometimes. About the only thing I don't have a problem spending money on is food. Though sometimes, I flinch when it comes to eating out. I don't like the prices of things lately. But most other purchases, I debate over for a long time. Which is probably why the idea of Black Friday is not tempting to me. To walk into a store and buy something that I haven't fretted over just seems wrong in some way. I think that I could become a little more free with my cash sometimes, but when I do that I often get to the end of the week and wonder where my money went and why can't I buy anything else this month. Which in all honesty, is a far worse feeling than the good feeling I get from having some new stuff. I guess the real reason I don't go out buying more stuff is because I enjoy the feeling of knowing I could buy something if I needed it far more than the feeling of owning stuff with no more buying power in my account.
What a second. I think that might be on to something, I actually enjoy the feeling of power, even if it's something as simple as buying power. Why is is that I lean away from being weak? Sometimes I lean so far away from it, that I make myself weak by not having the things that I need. There has to be a better line than the one that I'm walking. There has to be a better way than waffling between power and weakness. Can't I learn that line somehow?
I think for me, I have to learn how to be a cheerful spender. I have to rediscover the joy of not having money in the bank at the end of the day. I have to get back into spending my cash on gifts for others rather than needs for myself. Because honestly, I know that my needs are going to be met. God has provided me with a wonderful man that cares for needs that I didn't even know that I had. God is awesome like that. I need to get into cheerful giving away of things that I use to give myself power.
With that being said, who needs something?
PS I'm hoping to make the majority of the things I'm giving away to my family this christmas. We're planning on using the money for something really awesome. Want to see?
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